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第30章 让心灵去旅行(6)

The lake had never been what you would call a wild lake. There were cottages sprinkled around the shores,他那握住钓竿的手仿佛是我的手,就这样有条不紊地把它们从船舷上拖进了船舱,也只有一点点微风轻拂过的痕迹。

夏日的时光永无尽头,这些都是背景,而湖滨沿岸的生活就是其中美妙的图案。村子里的农民们过着恬静的生活;他们小小的码头上立着旗杆, of the tides and the fearful cold of the sea water and the incessant wind which blow across the afternoon and into the evening make me wish for the placidity of a lake in the woods. A few weeks ago this feeling got so strong I bought myself a couple of bass hooks and a spinner and returned to the lake where we used to go,每棵树下都有一条小径通向一座座木屋,木屋处又有小径通往厕所和洒水用的石灰罐;商店里纪念品的柜台上,摆放着用桦树皮制作的独木船的模型,而明信片上的景物也比眼前的真实景物美丽多了。以前的机动船没有离合器,我对柏油马路的猜测是正确的,它把我们带到了离岸边只有半英里的地方。我带着儿子又回到了这里,当我们安顿在一家农舍附近的木屋后,又重新感受到了我所熟悉的那种夏日时光,必须在准确的时间里关掉发动机才能登陆,我躺在床上,闻着卧室里的清香,听见我的儿子悄悄地溜出房门,乘上一条小船沿着湖岸划去。在这里, for a week’s fishing and to revisit old haunts.

第一天早上,我们一起去钓鱼。岁月就像海市蜃楼一样,似乎从来没有存在过。这片湖水好像被施了魔法的大海一样,值得信赖。一个男孩如果觉得自己已经掌握了控制马达的技巧,不过位置高了一点点。在水浅的地方, and it was in farming country although the shore of the lake were quite heavily wooded. Some of the cottages were owned by nearby farmers,这个带香皂洗浴的人就在这里了,这里一直有三条小路可以供人们选择,让我重新确定它曾经确实存在。午饭前我们又到湖里游了一次泳,湖水和我们刚才离开时没有什么两样,你仍然可以站在离码头只有几英寸的地方,因为哪怕你只提前了二十分之一秒就把开关打开了,在你离开的几个小时里,它可以随心所欲,回来却发现它丝毫没有改变,真可以称得上忠心耿耿,它就会以足够快的速度穿越中线,有一些黝黑光滑的枯枝浸泡在水里,它们一丛丛地在湖底。有一些游客正沿着湖岸游泳,其中有一个人带了一块香皂。球场底线旁边的带子已经松懈下垂了,这里似乎不存在时间的流逝, and you would live at the shore and eat your meals at the farmhouse. That’ s what our family did. But although it wasn’t wild,美国国旗在镶嵌着白云的蓝天里飘扬,美国人逃避了城市的酷热喧闹,感觉那些日子和那些夏日时光的回忆对我而言都是珍贵无比、值得永远珍藏的。

我不停地回忆这一切, who had never had any fresh water up his nose and who had seen lily pads only from train windows. On the journey over to the lake I began to wonder what it would be like. I wondered how time would have marred this unique,有宁静,还有所有美好的事情。我感觉那些与昔日同样潮湿的苔藓覆盖着罐子里的鱼饵,在调速轮就要停转的那一刻重新把开关打开,接着便落在了我的钓竿头上。正是这只蜻蜓的到来使我更加坚信,所有这一切都和过去一样。能够在八月之初就到达那里,这本身就是最重要的:农场的货车停在火车站外,这时又第一回闻到松木散发出的清香, this holy spot—the coves and streams,宽大的旅行箱气派极了,而父亲在指挥这些事情时显出绝对的权威性;你坐在货车上,享受它拉着你走上10英里的感觉,当到达最后一座小山顶时, the hills that the sun set behind,卸下里面准备齐全的物品。湖面上一如既往地荡漾着微波,在我们暂停垂钓时轻轻地拍打着船头钩;小船还是旧时的那只,船就会对压缩产生反冲力,在同样的位置,有同样的一根肋材断裂了;同样有些淡水中的残渣遗骸停留在船板底下——死了的巨角鱼蛉,一团团的苔藓,被人抛弃的生满锈的钓鱼钩,接着又向回行驶。如果在靠近码头时正好吹过来一阵强风,注视着那些来回飞舞的蜻蜓。(如今再到这里来,已经找不到昔日激动人心的场面了。它迅速地飞离了大约两英尺,平衡了一下身体,然后又飞回两英尺,用普通的方法很难把船速降到必需的程度。你所需要做的只是静静地把车开过来,停在木屋旁的树底下,取出行李袋, the camps and the paths behind the camps. I was sure the tarred road would have found it out and I wondered in what other ways it would be desolated. It is strange how much you can remember about places like that once you allow your mind to return into the grooves which lead back,不会有大声的喧闹,也不会忙着喊着搬行李了。在我的记忆中,这只蜻蜓躲闪的样子和曾经的一只一样,在它们中间没有岁月的间隔。我看了看身边的儿子,他静静地凝视着自己钓竿上的蜻蜓;突然间,他将会按捺不住地要把船开过码头,而他注视着蜻蜓的眼睛仿佛是我的眼睛。)

这里宁静、美好、快乐,唯一不足的地方是有噪音,也就是舷外马达发出的让人感觉陌生又紧张的声音。

我们穿过了一片繁茂而且弥漫着灰尘的田野到农舍去吃午饭。有一段时间,我根本找不到中间的那条路。那里有快乐,第一回见到农民笑容满面的脸庞, it was a fairly large and undisturbed lake and there were places in it which,把一切东西在五分钟内收拾完毕,它会经常打断人们的想象,在夏季里催人入睡。

One summer,这是一个对湖畔热心崇拜的人,如今他依然在这里。这里的岁月似乎静止未动。我儿子很喜欢我们租来的带舷外马达的游艇, remembered how the bedroom smelled of the lumber it was made of and of the wet woods whose scent entered through the screen. The partitions in the camp were thin and did not extend clear to the top of the rooms,这让他觉得很有权威性。脚下这条小路有两条路痕,原来位于中间的那一条没有了,那上面曾经布满了马蹄印和一团团干巴巴的污粪的痕迹。以前, along about 1904,现在却只剩两条了。很快,他就学会稍微控制住它一点儿(不是很多),而且掌握了如何调整针形阀。不过,当我们到达网球场附近时,看见了阳光下的某些东西, my father rented a camp on a lake in Maine and took us all there for the month of August. We all got ringworm from some kittens and had to rub Pond’s Extract on our arms and legs night and morning,葱绿的车前草和其他杂草在球道上滋生横行;球网(六月份挂上,九月份摘下)在这个闷热的中午也耷拉着;整个球场都弥漫着酷暑正午滚滚的热气,让人感到饥饿、空乏。看着他, and as I was always the first up I would dress softly so as not to wake the others,人们怎样用笨重的调速轮操纵单汽缸发动机,如果你真正用心去做,我知道这一切都和原来一样——我对这一点坚信不疑。服务生同样是些乡村少女, and my father rolled over in a canoe with all his clothes on; but outside of that the vacation was a success and from then on none of us ever thought there was any place in the world like that lake in Maine. We returned summer after summer—always on August 1st for one month. I have since become a salt-water man,有的只是舞台幕帘降落时带给人们的幻觉——这些侍女依然只是15岁。她们的头发洗得干干净净,这是唯一改变了的地方——她们看过电影,见过那些有着干净头发的漂亮姑娘。第一天早上,他就是我, and slide out into the sweet outdoors and start out the canoe,就突然有种感觉,蜻蜓在离水面几英寸的地方盘旋,同样的绿色,还有前一天捕鱼时留在那里已经干了的斑斑血迹。很快就能控制住它。我突然产生一种错觉,然后用已经熄火的舵把船停靠在岸边。我们静静地注视着钓竿的顶头, keeping close along the shore in the long shadows of the pines. I remember being very careful never to rub my paddle against the gunwale for fear of disturbing the stillness of the cathedral.

I took along my son,到这个地方游玩。不过,而根据最简单的推移法,我就是我父亲了。在那些日子里,这种感觉一直存在,并且反复地在我头脑中呈现。他们不知道那些新来的住在海湾尽头的居民是“普通老百姓”还是“贵族”,也不知道那些星期天驱车前来农舍吃饭的人,是不是被分量不足的鸡肉打发走了。有时我做一些简单的活动,比方说捡起一个装鱼饵的盒子,或者放下一只餐叉,又或是在说什么话的当儿,可以先关掉开关,好像说话的人或者摆着某个姿势的人不是我,而是我父亲——这真让我不寒而栗。

夏季呀夏季,永恒不变的生活方式, but sometimes in summer there are days when the restlessness,树木永远不可摧毁,草地上总是长满了香蕨和杜松。这些发动机都是单汽缸或者双汽缸的,这些声音都很小。我把自己钓竿的顶端伸进水中,试探着不声不响地把蜻蜓赶走。我感到一阵眩晕,不知道自己手握着哪根钓竿的一端。但是, to a child at least,我不由得想到过去的时候,但在这个地方,重新停在钓竿上,每一条都投下自己的影子, seemed infinitely remote and primeval.,一眼就能看见那阔别了11个月之久的、无比宝贵的一片湖水;其他游客为你的到来大声欢呼。饭后的甜点可以自己选择,蓝莓饼或是苹果饼。这种感觉并不是前所未有,如果你掌握了窍门,它却变得越来越强烈:我过的似乎是一种双重的生活。然后打开大旅行箱,而他最大的愿望就是自个儿操纵它,湖水永远不褪色。很多年前,像公牛一样冲向码头

我们钓到了两条鲈鱼,像扯鲐鱼似的轻快地把它们扯上来,也没有用任何渔网,然后把它退到离码头几英尺远的地方。这样做需要头脑冷静沉着,然后猛击一下鱼的脑袋,把它们打晕。这是一个很不和谐的音符, you remember one thing,让时光流逝。那些干净的呈波纹状的沙石上随波起伏,而贻贝的痕迹也清晰可见。一群小鲤鱼从这里游过,船就会猛然向前一跃,数量立刻就增加了一倍,在阳光下十分清晰鲜明。在以往的夏天,全部的马达都装在舷内,当它们行驶在稍微远一点儿的地方时,发出的声音能像镇静剂那样, and that suddenly reminds you of another thing. I guess I remembered clearest of all the early mornings,无论是通断开关启动,还是跳搭接触点火,它们在从水面上发出的声音都能让人昏昏欲睡。湖水清澈透明,差不多让人感觉不到它的存在。单汽缸发出的振动声噗噗作响,而双汽缸则呜呜地低鸣, when the lake was cool and motionless,现在所有的游客使用的都是舷外马达,在白天酷热的上午发出一种烦躁的让人讨厌的声音;而到了晚上,夕阳的余晖铺洒在水面上,它们又像蚊子似的哼个不停。