书城外语那些美好而忧伤的记忆(每天读一点英文)
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第27章 The Love Letter (2)

“I was quite a young girl when l first met Richard Weston. He was an Englishman who boarded with the Van Rensburgs on the next farm,four or five miles from us. Richard was not strong. He had a weak chest,and the doctors had sent him to South Africa so that the dry air could cure him. He taught the Van Rensburg children,who were younger than I was,though we often played together,but he did this for pleasure and not because he needed money.

“We loved one another from the first moment we met,though we did not speak of our love until the evening of my eighteenth birthday. All our friends and relatives had come to my party,and in the evening we danced on the big old carpet which we had laid down in the barn. Richard had come with the Van Rensburgs,and we danced together as often as we dared,which was not very often,for my father hated the Uitlanders. Indeed,for a time he had quarreled with Mynheer Van Rensburg for allowing Richard to board with him,but aferwards he got used to the idea,and was always polite to the Englishman,though he never liked him.

“That was the happiest birthday of my life,for while we were resting between dances Richard took me outside into the cool,moonlit night,and there,under the stars’he told me he loved me and asked me to marry him. Of course I promised l would,for I was too happy to think of what my parents would say,Or indeed of anything except Richard was not at our meeting place as he had arranged. I was disappointed but not alarmed,for so many things could happen to either of us to prevent out keeping our tryst. I thought that next time we visited the Van Ransburgs,l should hear what had kept him and we could plan further meetings...

“So when my father asked if I would drive with him to Driefontein I was delighted. But when we reached the homestead and were sitting on the step drinking our coffee,we heard that Richard had left quite suddenly and had gone back to England. His father had died,and now he was the heir and must go back to look after his estates.

“I do not remember very much more about that day,except that the sun seemed to have stopped shining and the country no longer looked beautiful and full of promise,but bleak and desolate as it sometimes does in winter or in times of drought. Late that afternoon,Jantje,the Little Hottentot herd boy,came up to me and handed me a letter,which he said the English baas had left for me. It was the only love letter I ever received,but it turned all my bitterness and grief into a peacefulness which was the nearest I could get,then,to happiness. I knew Richard still loved me,and somehow,as long as I had his letter,I felt that we could never be really parted,even if he were in England and I had to remain on the farm. I have it yet,and though I am an old,tired woman,it still gives me hope and courage.

“It must have heen a wonderful letter,Aunt Stephia,”I said.

The old lady came back from her dreams of that far-off romance.“Perhaps,”she said,hesitating a little,“perhaps,my dear,you would care to read it ?”

“I should love to,Aunt Stephia,”I said gently.

She rose at once and tripped into the house as eagerly as a young girl. When she came back she handed me a letter,faded and yellow with age,the edges of the envelope worn and frayed as though it had been much handled. But when I came to open it I found that the seal was unbroken.

“Open it,open it’”said great-aunt Stephia,and her voice was shaking.

I broke the seal and read.

It was not a love letter in the true sense of the word,but pages of the minutest directions of how“my sweetest Phina”was to elude her father’s vigilance,creep down to the drift at night and there meet Jantje with a horse which would take her to Smitsdorp. There she was to go to“my true friend,Henry Wilson”,who would give her money and make arrangements for her to follow her lover to Cape Town and from there to England,“where,my love,we can be married at once. But if,my dearest,you are not sure that you can face life with me in a land strange to you,then do not take this important step,for I love you too much to wish you the smallest unhappiness. If you do not come,and if I do not hear from you,then I shall know that you could never be happy so far from the people and the country which you love. If,however,you feel you can keep your promise to me,but are of too timid and modest a joumey to England unaccompanied,then write to me,and I will,by some means,return to fetch my bride. ”

I read no further.

“But Aunt Phina!”I gasped.“ Why... why... ?”